What if…? Why…? How come…?
Yup! That’s right! It’s that kind of night where I tend to overthink things too much. The pessimistic and optimistic part of me are having an all out debate. And this stupid brain of mine can’t decide on who to believe. Why does it have to be this way? Why do I have to be like this? I feel so stupid. Probably because I am stupid.
Friday. Some would say “Thank God it’s Friday!" but for me it’s more like "Oh no! It’s Friday.”
Today was the first day of our ‘training-plus-advanced-statistics-in-one-day’ schedule that would continue till the end of the semester. Aaaaand, I honestly don’t know if I can handle it. Both sessions are already difficult to handle, but putting them together in one day is just a pain in the neck… and in the brain.
This morning, we were supposed to have the training at 7:00-9:00, giving us ample time to eat an early lunch, rest and prepare for our advanced statistics class at 10:00-1:00. Unfortunately, there were a few hold ups in the situation. We ended up having the training until 10:00. We had to talk to our professor if she could give us time to have a lunch break. She gave us a 30-minute break. The eight of us looked for a vacant table at the canteen and ate our lunch quickly (not the type of lunch I’m used to) and went to class immediately.
During that class, I barely absorbed anything. I couldn’t understand most of what our professor is saying, since my brain is still not done processing and absorbing the information discussed during training. Ugh. If this continues, I don’t know if I could make it through the semester (exaggerating here)
Yesterday (today is 082014) was a day I surely will never EVER forget. The epic fail lvl I experienced was way off the charts. I never knew such things could possibly happen. I mean, it can happen, just not.. you know.. not to me. That accident was so unexpected (duh, it’s an accident you dumb dumb) that I had no idea what to do next. Good thing I brought extra money. And also, good thing someone called and came. The timing was so unbelievable that I still can’t believe it up until now. What are the chances that a person would call you in a time of drastic situations? Was it the person’s instinct? Gut feel? I really don’t know. All I can say is… WOW. JUST WOW. That person just became (as some of my friends call it) a knight in shining armor. (whut)
I can’t help but think, “Ano na kaya nangyari sa’kin kung di sya dumating?" And I’m serious about that question. I really have no idea what would have happened if I was with no one at that time. That person never left my side until he/she was sure that I was really okay. Even though it was almost time (for class) and even though I told that person that I’m fine and he/she could just leave for the class, that person stayed.
Honestly, I thank the Lord. Despite the (minor) accident that happened to me yesterday, He gave me someone who was willing to help and stay by my side until I proved that I was truly okay. Truly, I am blessed. The Lord didn’t allow me to face that situation on my own. He had His plans. Through what happened yesterday, I somehow proved the sincerity, level of care and level of concern of that person.
Lately, I keep on having this desire to help others by sharing the Word of God. Like for instance, now (as of the moment of typing) there’s someone I’m trying to help. The urge of helping that person was so strong to the point that even though we’re not that close, I initiated a conversation. I’m not as knowledgeable in the Bible as I hoped to be, but because of ‘this’, I now want to expand my knowledge when it comes to the Bible. It’s fulfilling to share the Word of God.
Random GIFS I made for our presentation on Public Speaking. ‘TWAS WORTH IT HAHAHA
ANG GULO. Ano bang kalokohan ‘to? Nagsama ang mga malabong kausap at mahinang maka-pick up. Walang patutunguhan ‘to. To tell you the truth, gets ko e. Gets na gets ko ibig mo sabihin. Ako pa? I mean, hindi naman ako ganon ka-slow. Pero srsly? In that manner mo sasabihin? I tried to help you. Ramdam na ramdam ko yung frustration mo everytime na… ano… kaso… ewan. Tapos lagi ka na lang nagagalit/nagsusungit kapag mas vague pa sa sinasabi mo yung sinasagot ko. Ayoko naman kasi ng ganon. Kahit naman kasi na ganito, sana wag ako yung… alam mo yun. (siguro hindi) ugh
These past few days were very.. extraordinary. It’s like all the positives and negatives of life (exaggerating here) bundled themselves and decided to happen in a span of one month.
My laptop really bummed me. I had to make a report one day and it somehow decided to crash - to die and never come back again the day before. I had all my important files, some of my sentimental stuff (ejournal entries) saved there. I also saved pictures for blackmail (lol) there! So I got really bummed that the thought of it makes me wanna go bananas.
I still don’t know what to think of the TPK-TY thingy to be honest. At first, I really tried to suppress it. I don’t want the same thing to happen again. They said it was normal to think that way since it was man’s defense mechanism to avoid getting hurt. It was very hard to contain though. Especially when everyday, the events tend to make my hypothalamus wanna go *boom*. Day by day, trying to suppress it became harder and harder and harder. Finally came the day when I decided, “I give up. You win." And surprisingly, I felt a surge of relief. Everything became easy. I felt more comfortable. I just hope this goes right. Like they say… Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
I got invited to join an organization called IEntelligent. Although I had been informed last year by the ‘higher-years' that there is a possibility I would be invited to join the moment I enter my third year in IE, when I was asked personally by the professor to join (well, I was not ASKED though. The term she used was that I was REQUIRED to go.) the training for IEntelligent, I was quite surprised. Half of me wants to join, the other half wants to refuse. For me, I think this is an opportunity I shouldn't miss. The experience would be exceptional. But, I might not be good enough to meet the expectations of the professors. I might not even pass the qualifications.
Still, I’m thankful for everything. The Lord has His reasons for these things. I may not be able to understand but I know that it’s for the best. I just have to trust in Him.
I was reading a random article in the internet and some were quite funny (for me tho)
HEHE: Wala ng mangaasar.. wala ng mambbwisit sayo next sem.
HEHE: Wala na ring mangongopya sayo.
HOHO: Di ka naman nangongopya sa’kin.
HEHE: Pano ang damot mo.
Nakalimutan kong may ganito pala kaming napagusapan non. Hahahahahahahaha natatawa ako hindi rin naman pala sya makakapagshift